Yeah I know I haven't posted for ages. But seeing as I still live in a free country, bollocks if I'm gonna apologise - so nyaa. Its humid, I'm sweaty, theres a fly in my room that seems determined to piss me off until I rip its wings off and those pissing jammy French gits managed to win against us in the dying minutes of injury time.
Just to add to it, one of their midfielders (Viera), told the press how they managed to pull through and triumph despite England's "dirty tricks and cheating".
Fuck off you tart ! Bunch of wussies can't take being tackled and of course them tripping over their own feet - looking for free kicks and bundling us over is clean tactics. Bunch of surrender monkey wankers.
Anyway, its not all over, as long as we win the other 2 games in the group. Football aside, still unemployed, but I'm going to either get onto the railway or get at least a part time job while I do courses for better jobs. I refuse to do another warehouse job or anything on that level. If I give in to that, I'm just continuing an ongoing loop and I want to marry Juls.
To do that I need to get a decent job, but financial reasons aren't the only thing. I want to have a decent job so that Juls doesn't get labeled as the girl in the family who married a loser whose beneath her and I don't wanna be seen as the one who just got lucky, got a great wife and lives off her.
Its not like I feel I have to earn more than Juls in whatever jobs we end up in, but I do have a sense of pride. When it comes to intelligence, I see me and Jul as pretty equal. Of course there are areas where one of us is stronger, but overall, we're very similar. The difference is that Jul is a lot more sensible than me and where shes at college, I went straight into work as soon as I could rather than doing the same when I should have.
I'll be 26 soon, but I keep reminding myself that there are people that were older than me when they decided to better themselves through courses and now they have some good jobs. So at least I'm getting a general sense of direction now.
Well Juls will be here in a couple of weeks - yay !!! Need to clean up this bloody room soon. Make space in cupboards and drawers and throw away these jobs papers and stuff that have been gradually building up. ;-)
Thursday is another England game, hopefully we'll win that one along with the last group game. I'd like Jul to see what the place is like when England play in a major tournament. I think she has at least a minor interest to be here for it too, but at the same time doesn't give a shit if we go out cause its less of a headache having to deal with me through it. ;-)
We'll be going to the Romeo & Juliet play at the Globe theatre for my birthday. I want to take her to that because shes really wanted to go and to be honest, all I want to do for my birthday is spend it with her. Not bothered about a party or anything, I'll be happy being with Jul, so although the play might be thought of as more Julie's thing (I am interested in it, just not as much as Juls is), I'm still getting what I want out of it all and thats to just be alone with her non stop through the day.
Will have to see whats on at the movies and stuff too. Not gonna have much money to spend, but I want to keep Juls as entertained as I can cause I don't want her bored. I wouldn't mind if we went to plays everyday (funds allowing) as long as I get to be with her. Florida tends to offer more for us to do, but her being here allows us to be more of a normal couple with a lot more privacy and stuff.
Anyway, I'm off to bed now - hopefully the dreams will be based on lustful thoughts of my sexy fiancee and not the last couple of minutes of that bloody England vs France match.
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
